Saturday, July 05, 2008

woorabinda on my mind...

mood: languid enough.
state i'm in: rainy day reading.
tune: zero 7 & josé gonzález 'crosses'.


i don't think i'm a country person, by any stretch of the imagination, but i have really been missing the solitude of rural life lately. and missing the general mood of woorabinda. i miss the relaxing days, the 20 second walk to work in the morning, fooling around for half the day with the health workers, and being intimately in touch with some very transforming social issues that grab a community by the shirt and shake it back to its cowering in the corner. i miss the yarns the most.

i've been back in brisbane for some time now, about 6 weeks, and it's becoming painfully obvious how little solitute a set of headphones really affords. it's an escape nonetheless, to pop on some blondie or blue six and lose yourself in the patterns on the plastic mouldings of the train interior. but it's not the sort of cathartic escape possible when your town lies hours from civilisation. there is no paddock or airstrip you can wander off into, where you can scream without being heard by anything but the kangaroos and the apostlebirds.

moreover, the extreme solitude i experienced, some of it self-imposed, has left me struggling to deal with people at such close quarters. it's not that i don't want them near, but i just find myself exuding an emotional coldness which is not so characteristic. the depth of these feelings and the revelations to be found within them is a little troubling.

anyway, here's some pics from my peripatetic days...



the old duaringa butcher... not sure if the meat's so fresh



rural hazard



view from horseshoe lookout, blackdown tableland nat'l park




in a moist part of the national park



view from descent down blackdown tableland



red-winged parrots... before alighting, they were 70km/h streaks of greed, red and blue



my flatmate... mostly just kept to himself



good camouflage



big sky country... beside the airstrip



my room, and that shitty phone!



one chilly night after a few drinks at dr mary's place. this is the woorabinda health service by night, complete with obligatory grazing horses



have i got the wrong car park?



somewhere between duaringa and nowhere



some of the local kids performing



damian, a good performer, whether at a corroboree or a public meeting




with lizzie and woggie... i felt like i connected with lizzie the most, over lots of cuppas out the back, yarning about all sorts of local and not-so-local issues; while a tad tangential at times, she always had something to say worth listening to



with yasmin and uncle bill, who's radio station i frequented



hard working woorie



crazy psychologist loretta



renee with her young one, maurie and lizzie



uncle charlie, shirley, and leeann the gatekeeper of the health service... uncle charlie was a hoot



aunty pam and aunty mary... "it's friday... where's my beeeeer?"



margaret (RN), bodgy and maurie



the health service resident's adopted dog, mia. such a sweet little thing



farewell woorie...


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images: mine

Monday, June 09, 2008

touching base...

mood: uncomfortable.
state i'm in: orthopaedically bored.
tune: madonna 'swim'


i feel so enormously out-of-touch with my regular musings here. the life away from brisbane has taken it's toll.

so i'd like to make amends and get this thing kick-started again.

when you're out of touch with a friend, it gets harder and harder with each day to regain contact. there is more and more to tell them about and it just feels like such an ordeal that you don't bother... and then it gets harder still. sort of feels like that with my blog, much like a friend.

so where to start? i could start where i left off... in reality however, i left off about novemeber last year. still haven't posted any pics from suffien and my little road trip through new south wales and canberra for emma and clay's wedding. never posted a great deal in nambour. managed to post absolutely nothing when away in rockhampton and woorabinda for my rural rotation, in spite of this being one of the experiences of my life.

i guess i'll just write about what's going on now, and intersperse it with experiences from over the preceding months.

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being back in brisbane isn't too bad. true, spending virtually all of my 28 years in this city have made me a little less than excited by what it offers, but i know it could be so much worse (read rockhampton). i have some great friends here, made both pre- and post-entry to med, then there is the lovely suffien, and of course there is my family. watching my niece grow up has to be one of my favourite hobbies.


internal medicine and rural rotations are out of the way, which sees me at the royal brisbane and womens, and wesley hospitals for surgery rotation, starting with orthopaedics. i won't say too much about it, except that whilst i don't mind orthopaedics, orthopaedic surgeons, for the most part, are a whole different story.

more to come...

Saturday, March 15, 2008

still in nambour...

mood: cloudy.
state i'm in: a little unwell... strep pneumoniae anyone?
tune: none... just the hum of computers in NGH library.


yes, still in nambour, but alas, my sunny coast days are numbered.

exams are on thursday, and i have to say i am not really that confident about my ability to do well. a pass is likely (if based purely on odds), but much more than that seems difficult. the last two years of this thing they call and MBBS has essentially knocked most of the academic self-esteem out of me.

still, i have only fond sentiments about the overall experience here... the staff are fantastic, and will be missed... have had a great time with a great buinch of people up here... the area is a nice place to study, with beaches and hinteralnd and shops and quaint towns all within easy reach... and what pub other than the club hotel in the main street can boast such noisy crickets in their garden beds.

so onward into my final week, where i will be banned form the hospital here and left to the mercy of the oldies in caloundra for three days of practice before thursday. then, we shall drink.

Friday, February 08, 2008

nambour week 2

mood: excited about tomorrow.
state i'm in: damaging the dalton.
tune: bryan ferry 'time on my hands'.


nambour viewed from the west


a few things are starting to take shape as the second week of my internal medicine rotation comes to an end. most importantly for the short term, i think i am gaining an understanding of what is required by my assessors. but even more exciting than that, i am starting to feel as if i have some worth within the medical team. i have made a couple of contributions to patient management (21-hydroxylase adrenal antibodies may yet prove to be my coup d'etat of the rotation), and am slowly coming to grips with form after form and reams of progress notes to be filled out. i feel i am making some encouraging headway.

however, nothing hardens my resolve to become a doctor more than the tremendous power of the relationship between doctor and patient. when a patient or one of their kin shakes your hand, and thanks you, or expresses their faith and hopes in you... well, it is very difficult to describe the power of that connection. there is such an enormous gravity beholden to the plans we make for and with our patients.

this is not a rant about how much power a doctor might have, and how intoxicating such power might be - i would hate it to be viewed as such.

what i would like to express is the immense pride i am filled with in myself, in my profession and those affiliated with it, including the patients themselves, for embarking together on the endeavour to reach a common goal - that goal being the most satisfying outcome for the patient. so often this runs in the face of our own naïvety or the challenging nature of many of the patients and their circumstances, but there is never an instance when we have nothing to offer, even if it is merely genuine compassion. it is such an awesome feat to witness at such close quarters.





storm front rolling over alexandra headland

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images: mine

Saturday, February 02, 2008

g'day

mood: calm.
state i'm in: where's the cheese?
tune: mylo 'zenophile'.


this video reel of bloopers from 'come and get it' just surfaced earlier this month. who'd have thought peter russell-clark would have had such a potty-mouth...


Friday, February 01, 2008

nambour week 1

mood: a little down...
state i'm in: such a pleasant place to not be on holidays.
tune: tori amos 'cornflake girl'.


i took today off, which means my first week in nambour was over prematurely… just a three day week to start with.

whilst seeing a patient yesterday, a man in the next bed arrested, which must be the most exciting thing that has happened thus far. i have not seen such a cataclysmic convergence of medical staff before in my short career, from a nurse tapping me on the shoulder to help, to her then realising I was a lowly student, then grabbing the intern to check the patient, then there were a dozen then twenty or more hospital staff members standing around observing this man’s chest being compressed to a third depth, or assist in handing something requested by the resuscitation team. i just stood idly by and watched.

other than that, my first week has taught me that really i have few answers. i cannot answer my supervisors with certainty of my correctness, and i cannot answer many of the patients’ queries due to concerns of not saying what the reg or consultant would say. i cannot do the job as good as anyone else can, so it makes doing any job at all tough.

nevertheless, i am willing to persist for now, in spite of my mother’s warning me to beware of the noravirus infection in nambour general, pressing on hoping to one day become competent in something.

the most i can say for now is that my efforts in my first week have been a quite self-deprecating endeavour.

at least life on the sunny coast is pretty good - beach nearby, friendly locals, and a comfy house to live in with a couple of good roommates. not all complaints up here.

Friday, January 25, 2008

halfway

mood: cheery, no more work...
state i'm in: mashin' it up one time!
tune: jay-j & mark grant feat. latrice barnett 'love is'.


reaching halfway through any course is a bit of a milestone; halfway through med is all the more significant in so far as that it heralds an end to primarily academic study and ushers in one's years of clinical training - we are now truly 'doctors-in-training'. this makes me glad, although i do have almost as strong a feelings of apprehension as excitement. but really, there is only usefulness to be found in entertaining one set of thoughts.

the following excerpt from a work by writer bruce durbin sort of captures the mood, and the picture immediately below certainly seizes a moment spent celebrating it... godspeed!




have you ever crossed a river? no, not using a bridge, but rather venturing into the rushing current using only your legs? as you step into the flowing water, the current will attempt to carry you downstream. the rocks, made smooth by countless centuries of rushing water, are slippery and your footing is uncertain.

as you look down into the rushing water, while you're standing still, the movement of the water, sweeping around your legs, invites you to follow the flowing water downstream. you become entranced with the flowing water. the water's movement forms multiple patterns as it moves effortlessly over rocks. you try to see into the deep pools of darkened water. all around you, there is the motion of the flowing water.

as you move further across the river, you reach a point where it is as dangerous to return to the shore from which you abandoned, as it is to continue on your journey to the other side.

as you stand still in the moving water considering which way to venture, the water rushes on. in order to start your journey from the middle of the river to one bank or the other, you must re-start the precarious journey. the current has not subsided and will attempt to carry you downstream. the rocks remain smooth and slippery. your footing will still be uncertain.

you have ventured into a flowing river. now, the question forms in your mind:

"how long can i remain in the current of a rushing river, contemplating which way to venture?"

excluding the possibility that the water will be miraculously stopped upstream from you, ceasing the flow of the water and creating dry land, you will be forced to either attempt to reach the far shore or the shore that you left.

staying in the middle of the river is not an option.

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image: paula hade

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

the gym

mood: languid.
state i'm in: sharing the moon.
tune: lovestation 'teardrops' (joey negro 12" mix).


i really like going swimming. i actually quite dislike going to the gym; i find it quite unpleasant. when one goes to the gym, he has to accept an extreme imposition upon his mood.

whilst on the way to them gym, i may be in one of many, many frames of mind, however it is very difficult to maintain that mood, and impossible to even entertain the thought of exploring it and its reasons for existing. my mood must compete for existence with everything the gym has to throw at it, the music being paramount among these. the lighting is stark and there are people around you fashioned into inscrutability themselves by the gym's offerings.

i find this frustrating, and, depending on the mood i'm in, normally quite unsavoury. having been at the gym for some time, i usually come around, begrudgingly, to its ways - stubborn, but ultimately malleable. i still find pleasure in a good cardiovascular workout and challenging myself on the free weights. once i leave, i can resume poring over whatever concerns i might have that day.

when i go the pool for a swim, i am free to take with me into the water my mood. i can and usually do explore it, along with the many other thoughts sidling into my consciousness. i can dissect any issue that concerns me, personal or otherwise, and usually end up coming to appreciate my place in the world at that very moment just a bit better. i treasure this time immensely, and look forward to it during my journey to the pool's entirety.

only occasionally to i enjoy the journey to the gym.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

automating

mood: essentially flat.
state i'm in: a tad askew.
tune: tasmin archer 'sleeping satellite'.


i track down a lot of songs from when i was younger, songs that i knew then, or perhaps just an artist i knew from that era that i had one song of, who i now proceed to acquire many songs of. i guess it takes me back to that era of my life, teenage years, when times were a lot more dynamic and exciting.

there were many things i needed to do, whereas now there are basically just things i want to do. now if i want to get into a relationship with a certain person, than i go and do it; when i want to study a certain course, i go and study it - basically, i do the things i want to do, and not the things i need to do. i once needed to act in a certain way, and spend time with certain crowds, and have a certain type of fun, and sleep with a certain type of person - these were things i needed to do, in order to be a person i needed to be.

i find it a lot more exciting when i am doing the things i need to do. why do i find more excitement in the things i need to do, and not those i want to do, a predicament that defies intuition? (even now, the most exciting things are still those i need to do, such as exams or compulsory prac work.) i fancy it's because back then, i needed to do certain things, such things that lead to me growing up, achieving milestones, whereas now i am mostly grown up, i think. what could be more exciting than growing up?

growing up is more exciting than being grown up, which is basically about being too mechanistic, i think.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

quoted...

mood: listless.
state i'm in: pie poisoned.
tune: george michael 'jesus to a child'.


this is gold... couldn't have said it better myself.

"the point is that there's a hell of a lot of money to be made in keeping people overweight and being 'pissed'."

victorian health expert professor robert moodie discussing the implications of a recently published longitudinal study examining the effect of healthy lifestyle measures such as diet and smoking status.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

the good life

mood: happy.
state i'm in: electric blue.
tune: tony bennett 'the good life'


today i feel really happy. really, life feels quite good indeed.

i spent most of today watching the cricket, reading the paper and eating on the couch. had a few candid phone conversations and looked forward to another day off work. three days off work is really bliss. time for myself, for the gym, for shopping or for seeing someone and even for just doing very little at all. more of this please!

work gets in the way of a holiday, but work means money, and that sure is a good thing. it is nice to be earning enough to allow your own finances to make sense - i am earning to save and buy the things i desire for myself and others.

the weather may be inclement, but that too pleases me. the rain and cool breezes as an alternative to blistering heat is fantastic. just a few weeks ago, as it was heating up, i was cursing the thick air, rank with the stench of rotting roadkill and detritus. how nice it would be for this weather to continue into the coming weeks, unlikely as it is.

i've spoken to several of my friends lately, and all are looking forward to things in the new year. they all have an adventure ahead or a scheme at the fore of their mind. every one is achieving, and i find that a really good feeling, to be surrounded by people going in a direction they desire. likewise, i have a lot ahead of me this coming year. i would be lying if i denied a degree of apprehension about what lies ahead, but i have confidence in my teachers that they know roughly what it is i need to achieve what both they and i hope i will achieve.

christmas and new years eve were pretty quiet, but i felt better for it. spending time with just the immeidate family on christmas day was a lot of fun and a few bottles of bubbles with trent and chico on new years eve, fireworks visible through the drizzly mist from my balcony, was just the ticket this year i feel.


HNY 2008 from trent


the andy warhol exhibition at GOMA is absolutely fantastic. to anyone who has yet to go, especially if they are the sort to say 'i am not really into modern art' or 'i just don't really get warhol as real art'. it is more than just an exhibition of art. between the efforts of mr warhol and the gallery's curators, it is a journey through the entire warhol epoch and everything that was going on around him a the time. the man's work certainly reflected of the times he was living in, and as such this makes him not just an influential artist, but something of an historian also, albeit one with a unique approach to the presentation of events. the venue was quintessential to the experience. having visited the national gallery in canberra recently, i can safely say that the brisbane gallery puts it entirely to shame. GOMA certainly is a real treasure to this city, and one of my favourite places to spend time.



as i pick up the paper or log on to some of my favourite news websites each day, i am greeted by stories that fill me with confidence for the decision we all took on that fateful day in late november. there is just so much sensibility in the actions our new federal government has taken thus far. i have the odd gripe here and there, but it nice to be grumbling over the fine details for a change as opposed to an entire action as was so frequently the case with regards to the former government. that australia seems like an age ago already.

to cap it all off there's a string of jazz tunes emanating from my speakers - life sure ain't bad at all!

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images: mine

Thursday, December 13, 2007

the good name

mood: still tired.
state i'm in: now bespectacled.
tune: peter, bjorn & john 'young folks'.


in addressing the united nations climate change conference currently underway in bali, prime minister kevin rudd, in an affirmation of the convictions of so many australians i know, declared that he and his team "have a determination to resurrect the good name of australia in the world". these are words the likes of which i have longed to hear for so so long. finally, the keel is evening out.


to date, mr rudd's government's efforts can be largely commended. whilst only very early days, he is making good on promises and the labor government is standing strong on commitments.

internationally, the kyoto protocol has been ratified by australia, ending an embarrassing saga rooted in the dogmaticism of the howard era. from several angles, the government has been subject to pejorative comments regarding its refusal to set a precise target for 2020 emissions cuts, and with some justification. however, i will have more respect for the government if it indeed keeps its word and waits for ross garnaut's report on the issue due mid-2008, just as it committed itself to doing before the election. whilst the importance of the issue of climate change cannot be discounted, the report's release will coincide well with the timetable for the laying down of targets for developed nations to 2050 and will also help cement mr rudd's claims to be a man who takes advice from experts seriously rather as opposed to following blindly an ideology.

also, the new government has shown to be firm and fair in its treatment of asylum seekers. already a group of burmese asylum seekers, until now stuck in detention on nauru, have had their claims processed and will enter the community as resettled refugees before christmas. meanwhile a group of indonesians found stranded in a stricken fishing vessel in waters north of the country have been repatriated to their homeland, after their reason for peregrination was established to be for purely economic reasons (in fact, due to australia's cracking down on their illegal fishing activities in this country's waters leading to a substantial reduction in their income).

on the domestic front, the government has taken steps to ensure that findings of guilt associated with breaches of the trade practices act involving 'cartelling' will carry criminal provisions, including custodial sentences. this parallels moves taken in the USA, much of europe and other developed nations. society ought to be protected from the machinations of cartels, a concept born of capitalism, but one which runs anathema to the concept of the free market, and hurts consumers and other businesses alike.

another area that has received the new government's attention is the establishment of a code of conduct for ministerial ethics. almost immediately subsequent to the swearing in of the new cabinet, the screws were tightened on political lobbyists, ministers' employment after leaving office, electoral fund-raising and direct shareholdings. mr rudd claims that more tinkering to the ethics of politics will occur before parliament sits in the new year, and i am quite keen to see what this unfolds to mean.

one area that i will be particularly looking for, and of far larger potential for abuse than the ethics of ministerial conduct, is the regulation and scrutiny of party donations. under the howard government, the limit set for the requirement of public reporting of donations to a political party was increased from AU$1500 to AU$10500. this does not include the aggregate of several donations, making it very easy for individuals, corporations or lobbyists to make repeated donations of under AU$10500 without any public scrutiny whatsoever. one must ponder the power of such large sums of donated money, possibly many tens of thousands of dollars or more, to steer a politician or their party in a particular direction, howsoever unfavourable to the wider community. if mr rudd is to be taken seriously in his quest to rid the political sphere of as much unethical behaviour as is possible, than this area more than most must receive his prompt attention.


i remain a continual optimist these days about the bearing my nation is steering with and some of the milestones we may achieve along the way. godspeed!

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image: public (let's just hope that's not grog in the bottle. we all know what kevin's like after he's had a few...)

busy busy...

mood: tired.
state i'm in: late night lens blear.
tune: rasmus faber feat. melo 'get over here' (axwell remix).


not so many posts lately. i've been pretty busy, working lots and taking a road trip to canberra and NSW with suffien for emma and clay's wedding. pics from this will follow and congratulations and well wishes must go to the newlyweds!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

finally...

mood: ecstatic.
state i'm in: one of the greatest nights in recent history.
tune: jose feliciano 'light my fire'


the time has passed when australia awakened... now let us stride forward.


to the dogmatic ideologue, the specious demagogue... farewell. to quote one abraham lincoln...




you can fool some of the people all of the time, and all of the people some of the time, but you can not fool all of the people all of the time.


congratulations mr rudd and party, and congratulations mr brown and party.

good night!

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image: public domain

Thursday, November 22, 2007

where has my holiday gone already?

mood: optimistic.
state i'm in: tired.
tune: bill withers 'ain't no sunshine'.


finally, the holidays are here... sort of.

exams came to an end last week with considerable festivities. the celebratory theme continued through to sunday, with my halfway dinner. however, between these events and since i have been back in retail for another christmas, again with sunglass hut. it took a few days to get my body back in the habit of working. an afternoon on the surf beach of bribie island with suffien gave some reprieve. in fact, this is probably the single most pleasant moment i have had in weeks and weeks. pure bliss!





it's a shame my exams have coincided so closely with the election campaign, preventing me from being as fully broached in the pervasive issues of the day as i would have liked to be. but then, i have been driven insane enough by the relentless negative advertising blitz from the coalition, and i dread each moment the television is on should i hear the words "working families" from kevin rudd, or any of his plethora of catchphrases for that matter, one more time.

more importantly than any of those emotions, however, is the optimism i hold for a positive outcome to the election. i believe there is a real chance that this embarrassment of a government may indeed be discharged from the position it is has been elected to time and time again through little more than a cynical appeal to the lowest common denominator of human affairs, that being fears and insecurities.

today, john howard outlined his 5 point vision for australia's future, as would be the case should the coalition again be reinstated. allow me to respond to these so-called 'visions':


1. keep the economy growing and try to further reduce unemployment to 3%.

with the current state of global economic affairs, it is virtually impossible for a nation’s economy, such as that of australia, to stop growing. in fact, only two countries in the world, with the exception of those in civil strife (e.g. iraq and afghanistan) are in recession. even if the USA slips into recession, and such an event is quite likely, it is highly unlikely that we will follow as we will continue to be propped up by growth in asia (read primarily china and india), and the events that are affecting the US economy are not prevalent here; that is, we do not have a significant market in sub-prime mortgages.

my opinion is that even a pack of second year medical students would be quite capable of keeping the economy profitable in its current state. although apparently doomsday is looming, and fanantics, environmental extremists and learners (empty labels, anyone?) will have buckley's chance of keeping this ship afloat. let's be honest without the reforms of the 80's, the likes of which previous governments had been too gutless to implement, we might still be stuck in the menzies era.


2. maintain national security.

who knows that this really means? sending us to another illegal war only serves to place australia as further risk of terrorist attack and creates another hot bed for the development of extremism such as what has happened in iraq. spending millions on channels for middle australia to report national security threats while at the same time alienating muslims in the community only serves to make matters worse. if anyone in the community will have knowledge about an impending threat, it will be mohammed from lakemba in sydney’s west, not mrs doctor’s-wife from ascot in brisbane.

australians are now more at risk than at any time in the past thirty years from a threat to life or limb brought about by a military or terrorist group.


3. implement the coalition's policy promises, such as tax cuts and the introduction of public hospital boards, "as fast as possible".

more economically divisive policy that follows what is essentially a darwinian economic theory. with such an ideology, far too many are left behind, to fend for themselves, when they are inadequately disposed to do so. there should be no one to hold back the aspirational ones in life, for it will be those that bring to society many ideas and riches. notwithstanding, in the spirit of any great democracy, justice ought to be upheld. the government does not have an adequate sense of justice in my view.


4. protect the environment by pushing for the states to sign up to his $10 billion plan to save the murray and arguing internationally for a successor to the kyoto protocol.

how empty can one party's vision be? unfortunately for the coalition, the australian government will not be invited to assist with the drawing up of any new international protocol provided that they are not a signatory to the kyoto protocol. this vision appears all the more empty when one considers the fact that the deputy prime minister still is not entirely convinced by the evidence pertaining to the link between climate change and human activity.


5. start negotiations with indigenous leaders over his plan for a constitutional recognition of the special status of aborigines in the life and history of australia.

this is an utter farce! after decades of complete opposition to any forms of symbolism, and a dogmatic pursuit to only practical measures to bring about an increase in the living standards of indigenous australians, this vision can be taken no more seriously than the previous. i spoke to a police officer from a remote aboriginal community only yesterday and his comments alluded to a complete indifference on behalf of the local indigenous australians toward any hopes of a positive outcome from the current intervention, open hostility to the abrupt imposition of the measures, and some disillusionment from the officer himself over whether the measures being employed are in fact the appropriate intervention. his sentiments only echo those of so many others whom have ha contact with the workings of this intervention.



so what do i think will be the outcome of this federal election? the pessimist in me despairs at the thought of a majority of votes against the coalition, yet still they retain power by being able to hold enough lower house seats. however, i am feeling a little more upbeat of late, so i am going to say the ALP with a gain of 20 seats.

and how will i vote this election? again, i am leaning strongly toward the only party that speaks in clear, precise english with regards to what its policies are, and speaks with a message, one steeped in a philosophy of a strong sense of social justice and an inclination to do what is morally 'right' in life... of course, that's the australian greens.


voters, take aim!




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images: tanya trinh, mine, public

Monday, November 05, 2007

danube

mood: despondent.
state i'm in: facing demons one more time.
tune: roni size / reprazent 'watching windows'.


i've got that intense feeling of escapism, the likes of which only comes with med exams, gnawing away at every reach of my mind. this time it has to be its worst; more is contingent upon my conquering this desolate period than there has ever been before. i feel like i can almost reach the other side, and all its treasures, but it's plainly difficult to get there. all i want to do is escape this conflagration of wretchedness consuming me. my mind just keeps wandering off to other latitudes...






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image: mine

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

swan song for group 19

mood: excited.
state i'm in: pleased about nambour and wesley for rotations.
tune: prince 'do me baby'.


well, another PBL group has seen its day. i must say, this group wasn't as sentimental as the others, but then, we were never disposed towards getting bogged down in any way. ours was a well-oiled machine that tore through a case with a lot of speed, and a little skill.

so i won't get bogged down in this either, and won't get sentimental either. ill just leave it to george, our fearless tutor, to let us know where we rank in the annals of PBL groups.


word, georgie



and another pic of goerge cos he's so photogenic... where are all the ones of the students???

Sunday, October 28, 2007

a nation getting back on track?

mood: pretty happy.
state i'm in: tidy.
tune: david bendeth 'feel the real'.


as each day and week pass by i am becoming just a tad more optimistic. about what? no, not this federal election in particular, but about the state of australian society. it seems as though there are many reasons to believe australians and australia as a society is re-evolving and emerging from its selfish hibernation of the post-keating / howard years. the impression i receive is that of a nation slowly re-engaging with the political debate and with what it means to be part of a society.

what gives me this impression?

most days when i read the paper or watch the nightly news i read articles and see stories that convince me people are just a little more willing now to take part in their democracy than what they might have been a few years prior. for example, whilst on the subject of television, current affairs programs are once again rating in the top ten programs on air, something not seen since the mid-1990s. it will be interesting to see if these programs also become as intelligent as what they were at that time - what must jana wendt or mike willesee think of the current state of current affairs?

just yesterday, statistics emerged showing an enormous rise in the number of youth enrolled to vote in comparison with the 2004 election. the government's decision to legislate to bring forward the close of the electoral role to the evening of the commencement of the election campaign has been met with fierce opposition from many angles and countered by some effective measures to remedy this assault on democracy. groups like GetUp have had a substantial impact on lifting youth enrolment figures, but it is the australian electoral comission (AEC) that must take most of the credit. spending $15 million of their own money, the AEC's campaigning at high schools, universities and, in particular, their clever 'rock enrol' campaign pushed at music festivals and over the airwaves via 'triple j' have exposed younger australians to the idea of voting as being their right and a right that no government should be able to take away or prevent from being fully employed.

'boutique issues' are now being approached with a degree of seriousness which is promising. for example, climate change has become a far bigger issue than i had anticipated in this election. on the potential for nuclear power plants in australia, it appears that the government has shifted its aspirations for this to the back burner, in an attempt to neutralise this as an environmental and election issue. i have also been surprised by the lack of sympathy that the electorate has shown to the government's position on african immigrants, in particular refugees, and their tribulations of integration, and on its excuses made in the treatment of mohammed haneef, whose detention under the auspices of anti-terror laws has now been described by so many parties as having been based on wafer thin evidence. dr haneef's appeal to the federal court before the election in november, if successful, might make matters even more troublesome for the government. are we really thinking a little more rationally now, or just immune to the onslaught of another 'foreign hordes' fear campaign?

all of this aside, i think the greatest sign of a potential re-engagement is the number of people wiling to put their money where their mouth is. betting agencies have taken more money in bets on the outcome of this election campaign in its first two weeks than was generated in the entire 2004 campaign. with possibly more weight than the weekly net and phone polls in predicting an election outcome, betting has been heavily skewed towards a change of government.

opposition leader kevin rudd, rather than being able to take a great deal of credit for this phenomenon of re-engagement, is largely just harnessing it for his party, and of course has been very successful at avoiding wedge issues thus far, such as the african integration issue. it seems as if he and his advisers have sensed the change of heart and are keen to remind folks that they are the party more adept at confronting the electorates new-found concerns. bob hawke and paul keating (especially mr keating, after "the recession we had to have") have been making many a surprising cameo appearance at campaign launches and on television and radio, having seemed also to have sensed this shift, and are keen to remind us all of the achievements of their (labor) governments, changes that are still bearing fruit time and time again.

just as important, in a significant undoing of their previous successes, it seems as if the government has lost clairvoyance for the shifting mood of the electorate. the government, over its time in office, has consistently taken measures to reduce citizens' engagement with their governance and for the greater part of their time in office these measures have gone unnoticed. now, finally, it seems as if people are sitting up, rubbing their eyes clear, and taking a harder look at their society and its direction. many a heavy albatross is coming home to roost around government minister's necks, and no more than around the prime minister's himself.

how many times did you say interest rates have risen since 2004, mr rudd?

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images: public

Thursday, October 25, 2007

countertransference? a little

mood: fairly relaxed, all things considered.
state i'm in: abetalipoproteinaemia, lymphangiectasia, hypogammaglobulinaemia... it all gets a bit much sometimes.
tune: humming fan and distant thunder.


i had what will likely be my last clinical coaching session this afternoon (provided i make it into third year). it was a pretty fun session, but my mind wasn't really on the game. "aortic stenosis? yeah sure, i'll believe you."


i can still remember my first class in the hospital...

we marched over from the clinical sciences building with our first coach, jenny, and she was pestering us all the way to walk faster, telling us "you'll have to get used to it when your doing rounds". then up the elevator, and out onto level 7 or 8. i saw a patient being wheeled past in the corridor. i looked at emma, and at the moment we both realised where we were and what we were doing. at that moment, i became a medical student.

gomers aplenty, i think i have come a fair way in the last two years, since my first coaching group sat down with jenny and realised how hopeless we were at examining anything. ("what are you doing!!") i also think i have so far to go - my skills surely can't be more than a few per cent developed at this stage.

i was rarely in the mood for coaching, generally late in the afternoon, but almost each and every time i got a tonne out of it. although all so different, i couldn't really fault any of my coaches. one stands out in particular, however:

if there is a god, this guy is certainly getting his comeuppance... countertransference? a little.


any bruits, luci?

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image: mine

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

"below" to "above"

mood: content.
state i'm in: a bit concerned.
tune: the brand new heavies 'i don't know why (i love you)' (dj spinna remix).


this is when i get a bit concerned...

on the austereo radio network today opposition leader kevin rudd defended his party's position on same-sex marriage:

on the institution of marriage itself, our view is between a man and woman and it's just been our traditional, continuing view.

when asked if, in the future, such a position may look as close-minded as racist beliefs of the past mr rudd replied that it is what he believes in. his replies were somewhat vague and trailed off, which leads me to ask to what degree are these his beliefs or just the party line. i have a vested interest in the man's personal assertions should he become prime minister, as they are likely to carry considerable ammunition into battle repelling the gains by the conservatives of this nation in john howard's so-called 'culture wars' - and i support marriage for same-sex partners. i personally support legislation allowing for fully recognised marriage for all human beings and their partners as i cannot understand why my contributions to society ought to be deemed any less worthy of recognition than those of my brother or my neighbour.

in his closing remarks on radio today, mr rudd asserted that "legal discrimination against same sex couples should be removed". whether that only applies to the 50-something items of legislation described as discriminatory by the australian human rights and equal opportunity commision, or something further in line with mr rudd's personal views as declared in the past remains to be elaborated.

what placates me about mr rudd on this matter is the views he outlined in his essay for last october's edition of 'the monthly' magazine, 'faith in politics'. when addressing the modern forms of political engagement between church and state, one he explicitly deplores is "vote for me because i'm christian, and because i have a defined set of views on a narrowly defined set of questions concerning sexual morality." mr rudd responds to this as such:

regrettably, this model has an increasing number of supporters within the broader christian community. such supporters tend to read down, rather than read up, the ethical teachings of the new testament, producing a narrow tick-the-box approach to passing a so-called christian morals test. these tests tend to emphasise questions of sexuality and sexual behaviour. i see very little evidence that this pre-occupation with sexual morality is consistent with the spirit and content of the gospels. for example, there is no evidence of jesus of nazareth expressly preaching against homosexuality. in contrast, there is considerable evidence of the nazarene preaching against poverty and the indifference of the rich.

the central theme of his essay is that "a core, continuing principle shaping this engagement should be that christianity must always take the side of the marginalised, the vulnerable and the oppressed." mr rudd further elaborates his beliefs that the role of the (christian) church in its engagements with politics should be one of "speaking directly to the state: to give power to the powerless, voice to those who have none, and to point to the great silences in our national discourse where otherwise there are no natural advocates". mr rudd, as the fair and reasonable christian man you claim to be, i believe you have demands from LGBTs that you would need to address should you be elected.

right now, mr rudd, in spite of their toils, LGBT advocates are failing in their attempts to be heard - personally, i feel quite powerless, without voice, and without advocacy in the face of the hard-fought oppression of those you refer to as "above". i am, in this instance, what you would refer to as "below".